this is when i'm not longer than i use to be
i'm not someone 'iman' like old  days.
i'm different
yes.
i'm too far

flashback the time when was a student when was in lower secondary school

*ignore all the grammar mistakes here

i'm a good girl at that time
i use to be
but not lah macam muslimah alim-alim warak tu
i'm just a nice nice je
i'm still know when it should or not
i'm a good reader
from a novel till my favorites like cerita cerita pahlawan-pahlawan Islam
pasal Salahuddin Ayubi, Sultan al-Fateh, Iskanda Zulkarnain, cerita-cerita Nabi and etc.
i'm know apa halal apa haram

until
there is a person totally change me
change me 100%.
change my life for whole

i'm now not a good girl anymore
like that old time
pity me
now i'm super duper naughty girl
i'm addicted to something that i shouldn't tell it here
yes,
seriuously addicted

sometimes i feel sad,
i feel horrible with myself
why u be like this iman?
why?

i'm a naughty girl with lazy attitude

once i was a very motivated girl
i always had vision or mission about what i want in my life

but i know that my old one

i want to change
but it hard you know
supper duper hard

when i saw everyone change for good i praise Alhamdulillah
but me? when?

last day i went to mph nak tebus baucer buku,
cari-cari buku tak ada yang best
then i went to bahagian buku-buku agama
you know
the feelings
when i saw all the books there,
ada air mata yang bergenang di kelopak

buku-buku yang mengingatkan aku pada dosa dan pahala
pasal hidup dan mati
pasal menanti bahagia yang dicari
i want too cry
but there is 2 books yang aku dah ambik nak beli
but yelah
syaitan kan ada dimana-mana
lastly tak beli buku tu
aku beli buku fixi, lejen press dengan freud press
silly me -.-

here i want too say
i'm totally change

* sambung nanti boleh tak?
penat dah menaip
haha